Sunday, April 6, 2008

ooooh, I love a good questionnaire!

Cat passed along these questions, which I must say I find quite thought provoking and cause for looking inward....and I am always looking for another reason to do that ;)

1. What is the best part of your life right now?
**well, my first knee jerk thought was that I don't live anywhere near my inlaws. I realize that is neither productive nor positive, but I don't want to just skip over it and deny that I HAD the thought. I'm beginning to think that some things just aren't fixable. I am learning to let go of anger, realize there is no WRONG or RIGHT, there is just different.

ok, the TRUE and REAL best parts of my life right now are good health for me and my family, which, as my husband saw at 4am this morning with a 39(!) year old who had a massive heart attack....can NEVER be taken for granted. The other best parts are spring finally coming, bonfires in the backyard, watching the kids roll down the hill on the golf course a gazillion times until they are shrieking with delight and hysterically dizzy, my sense of humor (when I feel like I am up to my ears in "mom, can you get me this, mom I need that, mom....can you help me, moooooommmmm, she bugs me, etc......), good friends, and my favorite parts of my favorite books (which I can read over and over and still get tears in my eyes).

2. What do you think the best part of the near future will be?

Growing our roots in this town which we have now called home almost 2 years. We have made some fantastic friends, and watching the kids grow up with the neighbor kids and dear friends is going to be awesome. Just today they congregated with a few in the backyard and went exploring in the woods. Watching the kids grow in their early school years, learning from us and teaching us so much all at the same time.

3. What are you most afraid of?

Death, regret, outliving my kids, or something happening to me and leaving them without their mom.

4. What are you a little worried about?

making the right decisions for and about the kids. I mean, how does anyone know what is the right thing for me and my kids?

I'm also a little worried about end of life issues. My grandmother is currently grappling with being tossed back and forth between nursing home and hospital, contemplating hospice........this cannot be the way to go. It seems so inhumane.

5. What do you dream of?

leaving a legacy of trust, support and love to my kids. I also dream of growing old with Rich, surrounded by our children, their spouses and our grandkids. (when I tell Rich that, he says "can you please not make me OLD yet?")

I also dream of peace......our family living in peace, peace within myself, and with all the angry people there are in the world. Yes, that is idealistic, but what is the POINT of all the fighting? Really!?

6. Who do you trust most to share these things with?

Rich, my friends (old and new), and myself.

7. What questions do you have?

What really happens after you die?

Does our soul still have a voice?

Are we leaving a home, town, country and world to our children that we are proud of?

Why do some people seem to think only of themselves? Do they see it as selfish?

Will I be friends with my children when they're older? What will they say about their childhood?

How does Elmo hear? Does he have ears?

Is there really truth to the law of attraction?

When I talk to people that have passed away, do they know it?

8. What gifts can you share?

I am resilient. I am patient. I am kind even when I don't feel like being kind. I give of myself and look out for others.



Good questions!!! Now I have to tend to the littlest princess (who just turned 2!) waking up from her nap.